I torture myself with a past that isn’t mine and a future that won’t happen. Then, I realize I’ve forgotten to breathe.
My reaction to the weight scale today.
The next day he passed Alai in the corridor, and they greeted each other, touched hands, talked, but they both knew that there was a wall now. It might be breached, that wall, sometime in the future, but for now the only real conversation between them was the roots that had already grown low and deep, under the wall, where they could not be broken.
The most terrible thing, though, was the fear that the wall could never be breached, that in his heart Alai was glad of the separation, and was ready to be Ender’s enemy. For now that they could not be together, they must be infinitely apart, and what had been sure and unshakable was now fragile and insubstantial; from the moment we are not together, Alai is a stranger, for he has a life now that will be no part of mine, and that means that when I see him we will not know each other.
—Orson Scott Card, Ender’s Game (via andrewbaggott)
I will reach my field of battle by any means at my disposal,
And when I get there, I will arrive violently.
—Ron Flowers (via andrewbaggott)
Effects of bullying
I’m not supposed to miss you.
An amazing thing happens when you get honest with yourself and start doing what you love, what makes you happy. Your life literally slows down. You stop wishing for the weekend. You stop merely looking forward to special events. You begin to live in each moment and start feeling like a human being. You just ride the wave that is life, with this feeling of contentment and joy. You move fluidly, steadily, calm and grateful. A veil is lifted and a whole new perspective is born.
aka how to be a total bad-a**